emotional on cny. great. ha

I just didn't realized that putting an effort to do something, causes people to pissed off.
And great. Now I get pissed off as well. ARGH..

Yes, who exactly am I then?
What exactly do i have?
Where exactly i wanna be at?

*pooofff* all these just vanished and appeared in my mind.

Let me think.. yeah..
I wanna get my bike lesson asap.
I wanna be an investor.
I wanna be an economist.
I don't wanna be lazy.
I just want my whole cell group to be closer.
I just want people around me to be be happy.
I just wanna be myself.
I just don't wanna be responsible and play like a child.
I just... I just...... I just..............

I'm felt like a loser.
I felt so discourage.
And yet, now is not the time to give up.
But i really really really wanna give up.
I'm in between heaven and earth right now.
And I feel lost.

Sometimes, I just wanna be alone. And sometimes I need people to be there for me as well.
But I just can't seem to handle myself well.

Tons of emotional thingy issue going around here right now.
And I hate to think.

And all these definitely is just some part of emotional thingy I'm going through right now.
But please don't ask me about this.
I'm just frustrated.