Nevertheless, every rough situation brings an unforgettable experience and lesson; and hopefully i do remember these lessons. I guess the only thing I need to do for my life is staying close with God, knowing that all things will come to an end, and creates a new beginning.
These crisis made me sees my own weakness and admit to it. But just admitting it, isn't enough. I know and I know that it is not enough. Seeking God; praying to God; relying on Him is more than enough but did I?
I guess, stepping down and being an ordinary member suits me more than anything else now. And all i ever want now is just the inner fruits of the Spirit, the peace; love and joy of God.
And only Him knows my pain.
