emotional on cny. great. ha

I just didn't realized that putting an effort to do something, causes people to pissed off.
And great. Now I get pissed off as well. ARGH..

Yes, who exactly am I then?
What exactly do i have?
Where exactly i wanna be at?

*pooofff* all these just vanished and appeared in my mind.

Let me think.. yeah..
I wanna get my bike lesson asap.
I wanna be an investor.
I wanna be an economist.
I don't wanna be lazy.
I just want my whole cell group to be closer.
I just want people around me to be be happy.
I just wanna be myself.
I just don't wanna be responsible and play like a child.
I just... I just...... I just..............

I'm felt like a loser.
I felt so discourage.
And yet, now is not the time to give up.
But i really really really wanna give up.
I'm in between heaven and earth right now.
And I feel lost.

Sometimes, I just wanna be alone. And sometimes I need people to be there for me as well.
But I just can't seem to handle myself well.

Tons of emotional thingy issue going around here right now.
And I hate to think.

And all these definitely is just some part of emotional thingy I'm going through right now.
But please don't ask me about this.
I'm just frustrated.

NUA NUA SHEN GONG!!!!!!!!!

RECRUITING:
Disciples for the skill.

Requirement:
1. You need to have the talent to be nua-er. (we don't recruit people that is too hardworking..)
2. You need to be in NS (being out-of-course is an advantage)
3. You must not have any passion
4. One of your hobbies must be sleeping and nua-ing.
5. You have alot of fav. spot for nua-ing.
6. You must be rich =)
7. Last but not least, we need you to have the passion to be nua-er.

Application are open to all.
Regardless whether you're guy/girl/gay/les/babo or butch.
Doesn't matter if you're young/old/granny/infant/middle-age/youth/teenager or young adult.
You can sign up for it by tagging at the cbox on the right hand side.
We are only recruiting 1 out of 6billions world population.

SO ARE YOU THE ONE?
HEHEHEHEHEHE....

As the saying goes,
"When the prince is ready, the princess will just come to him eventually."

I guess I'm just not ready for it. Aren't I?
Yes, i can't deny that i missing her. great.

I guess that's the problem of being too free. You would want to update blog every now and then.
Geez, but i got nothing much to update either.

In another words, this is a

REDUNDANT ENTRY~ =D

A moment of thoughts, another moment of foolish.

As I lied down, staring at the clear dark sky.
The stars are the prominent, true north are found.
Yet, how often can we see such beautiful night?

Whilst admiring such scenery, my mind is full of thoughts.
Thoughts of you:
So near yet so far.
Far yet wanna be near.
Got nearer yet don't wanna be near.
How contradicting.
*laughs*

And I choose not to think, choosing to face it. Guess its time.
Responsibilities are falling on me, negative thoughts are back.
Confidence are falling apart,
but I guess its all part of life experience. =)

Identity.

I'm totally not myself and I'm not awesome with that. And that sucks too.
Totally.

Had some great time at Brian's 21st, and it was awesome.
Which also reminded us that everyone's 21st is coming. Great, bigger pocket hole now.

And now I hate this feeling/thinking in my brain. Its like 7/2, which sucks. lol

Anyway, suckamania.
Gotta buck them up.

How nostalgic of those photos is.

Now I'm missing those days.
And yes, this year is 21yr old.
OH MAN!!!!!!!

BRAND NEW YEAR AND 2008 MEMORIES

Total brand new year, and to make it as if it is a sign from God, look:
1. My usual blog is being hacked (damn that fellow)
2. I lost my whole wallet. (inclusive of all the identification card)

Basically, what i'm trying to say is:
Throwing away the past is one of the way to start a brand new year.

2008 is definitely an up and down curve, and its totally good.
Keldy's theory: Our life journey is from a point to another point. Our life have to be up and down. Because if everything is constant, life line would be just a straight line, and what do we see at the other end? Death. Hence, up and down is sort of like making you feel like life isn't short. A moment you could see death, another moment you see heaven. Its not like you'll see it instantly.

And yes, on this very 1st day of 2009, its my LAO DOU bday. Though how much i wanted to join cg chill out day, still to be celebrating dad's birthday with cake all those was more of a priority and I had never really celebrate with him till now.

Before i ended this post, just wanna let all these people know:

God, i super love you guys. You guys are awesome in my life.
Of course, that's included vin, pok, keldy, james, yijiang, yuan, brian
and of course my best^5 friend - huixian, jiemei and kim, reena, eve,
siping, eleen, and many other more.

AND WITH THAT, LET'S ENJOY THE START OF 2009 AND 2008 MEMORIES.

2008 events: Let's look at it...