Life have been rough, especially the path i am taking now.

whew.

Perhaps, really time for me to take a break.

9th July, a turning point.

Yeah, 9th July is indeed a special day for me. Should I describe it as a day of happiness, or as a day of sadness?

Everything was going fine, all accordingly to what I planned for myself until the day i realized having iPhone is a disaster! True enough, many claimed that iPhone is good, iPhone is awesome, iPhone this, iPhone that. Nevertheless, everything have it's pros and cons, and i discovered the cons of iPhone. It was just way too good that it became a fault.

I met with an car accident on my birthday. Straight into the backside of a Toyato Axio with the head of my Kia Picanto. I was exiting CTE - Bukit Timah Road to a rental company to swap back my Suzuki Swift, that's when i was reaching out for my GPS(iPhone's apps: Maps) and was just about to look into the screen of my GPS and *BANG*. Awesome, how should I describe that moment of adrenaline, yet full of worries of the payment of the car?

First thing that came into my mind. WOW. Next, OMG. Last, SHIT.

And... a lot of things happened.

But but but, because of this. God showed and assured me of something that what I have been asking myself: "Have i really build any relationship with people around me?"

And through this test, God showed me a direct answer: YES.

You never know how blessed you are until you see with your heart. All along I have been seeing things that are just visible, things that are within my sight, things that what my 5senses are seeing. What the bible stated is true. Things that can be seen with your sight are things that temporary, yet things that cannot be seen by sight are things that are eternal life.

Money are just temporary. I hold on to it so tight that I refused to let it go. And yes, when it's not meant to be yours, it just can't be yours. Learn it in a hard way.

Yet, relationship are eternal. It's an invisible chain connected to my heart to your heart to his heart to her heart. That only when the tough times comes, you just see the chain to clearly. Like you put on a 3D spectacle and you are able to view it in 3D graphics. Only the heart can sees it.

I learnt a lot. Especially when I received Christ. Because of all the trials in my life, that brings me to what I am today. Forsaking of my past, embracing present and walking towards the future.

And I just can't help saying a million thanks to people around me, helping me walking in my life, completing my journey.

And most importantly, I just can't give enough to thank God, that He picked me out of the world and planted me in this very church; cell group - E376.

Loves.

Here's what have been happening and what future events lies ahead in 2010!

What's happening?!

1. I am officially starting my English classes at British Council
   Yup, I am learning my basic grammar all over again. But I'm loving it. ;)
   
   
2. Finally! I got my 'Engineering Economy' textbook. Time to study for the tests in NTU.
   More study to come. But still, i wanna get my certificate for this. :)
   
   
3. I am officially quitting the admin/ad-hoc job on 8th July 2010!
   Hoorayy~ No more long-distance travel and waking up early in the morning. :)
   
   
4. I have been blessed and blessed and blessed constantly by my family, and government!
   Bible says, if you are faithful and have not robbed from tithe and offering, i will give you what is sufficient for you. Indeed, He gave financial support always just when i need it the most. Thank you God. And yes, government giving 200bucks for GST rebate. It belongs to the building fund.
   
   
5. I have been trying to catch up with all my friends, constantly trying to build a better relationship with them. Time is never enough, and that's true.
   Yeah, now i realized how much can i do with the time available. True, i wanna focus on my goal, but still God will is always the priority.
   
   
6. A.R Bernard is here with us!
   A great pastor & spiritual father of City Harvest. OH YEAH!!!! it gonna be awesome this weekend.
   
   
7. Pastor Tan preaching is always the best. And Pastor Kong is back, finally. After all that have been happening in City Harvest.
   Once again, Pastor Tan gave another insight - Righteous with Mercy. Fav. pastor of all time, always simplifying things into our language. And Pastor Kong looked so fragile. Oh man. But it's great to see him again. :D

What's gonna happen?!

1. MY BIRTHDAY!! 9th July of coz.
   I don't ask much for present, but just some simple wish that show friends that cares. :)
   
   
2. I'm soooo gonna take bike lesson soon.
   God, please bless me with the money to learn.
   
   
3. SIM university. 2nd August 2010.
   My goal: At least 2nd class honor. Upper or lower doesn't matter. Chiong ah!!!
   
   
4. Being more focus on my account; forex. mini one though.
   Focus on more details. Knowing the end of waves and correct trading attitude.
   
   
5. Pastor Mike Connell. tsk tsk.
   Too awesome. Wonderful deliverance pastor. Hope best^5 friend could make it for this.
   
   
6. Freshmen Orientation
   YUP! I am gonna play to the max.
   
   
7. DX zone planning
   I want to be more involved in ministry! In DX.
   
   
8. More bible classes pleaseee
   Upgrade my knowledge in bible pleasee. Still half way thru Christian Lifestyle, and next Victorious Living.
   
   
9. Continue to sow in friends relationship
   I want to be by the side of them through thick and thin, through tough and happy times.
   
   
10. Stronger prayer warrior!!
    Faith to pray for others, sensitive to Holy Spirit.
    
    
11. My zipia items!
    YEAHHHH!!!!!! I bought sooo many item, and thank God my mum is giving me as my bday present~ WOOOHOO.

龚芝怡 - 明知我爱你

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
放弃你 忘记你 只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
但为何 到如今 我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你 假装不在意
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

Re-newed!

A brand new skin, brand new me! :D

Anyway was sharing the other time, all about Thailand trip. This time round, i just gonna show photos after photos(but of course using video), to show my Thailand backpack trip. But unfortunately, i can't as it really damn long to just upload a video. -.-

Anyway yes, when i meant brand new of me, i guess it's time. Few years back, I said to myself: "I shall walk out of the umbrella that my parent have been carrying it for me." And now, I can finally hold the umbrella myself (though the umbrella belongs to them), but nevertheless I know and I know, one day i can buy my own umbrella and buy for them even nicer umbrellas.

(It's okay if you don't get the point here, it's my own view)

Suddenly, my doors seemed to open up. Not just a door, but is DOORS. Ideas keep popping into my mind, and hopefully i could translate them into action, not just NATO(No action talk only). But I know and I know and I know, that God is the only one who can lead me to the right direction. Like what the Bible says, not my will but Your will be done. Amen to that? :)

Till then, I shall update more if i could.