This week really is an experiencing & adrenaline week. First time ever seen such a market since i started out. Most of the time, the market would be just following the waves, counting waves would be easy and simple. But this week is full of fundamental. Fundamentals that brings the Euro up and down, fluctuating every hour, every minutes. And mind you, these fluctuation is not just normal 30-40points that your heart is able to tahan. These are what i call - the amplification of waves fluctuation. (AWF)

AWFs bring up to 3-4 hundreds points within split seconds. They made your eyes really started rolling up and down, pumping a thousands gallons of blood in and out of your heart. Causing insomnia, distractions, all sort of negativity emotional thoughts came rushing to your brain. Stress level went up, might even caused your regular period to go haywire. But nevertheless, for a small little trader like me, it just burned maybe about 5-6 hundreds USD, due to AWF. But still these 5-6 hundreds buy me experiences that you might just see maybe once a year or twice a year?

I really gotta admit, I am addicted. Really really addicted to the thrill that you get from this game. Addicted to the stress that causes you to unable to focus on your studies, game, what-so-ever you are doing. And slowly, slowly it is eating up your whole concentration. Your mind began thinking about every now and then. Just like love-at-first-sight. Yes, it's that kind of attraction it have.

So basically this week is the best week of the year. And i hereby nominating it as the best week of the year for now. Maybe my trip to Thailand might get another nomination, but for now, this is da BEST!

Oh yeah, just to share what might caused these awesome week.

1. Dow Jones Industrial had great free fall from 2.41pm - 2.45pm, about 1k points way down.

Reason? Rumour to be caused by a citibank trader that causes the whole market to plunge down.

2. Greece is really causing alot of problem huh.

3. European Central Bank is not doing anything to boost traders confidence.

4. Now britain is having an awesome election. Apparently it seems like current leading government are on par with the opponent (The Conservatives).

5. USD is going up, due to news given that more jobs created this month than previous month.

Actually there are more, but it looks like some conspiracy thingy to me. But anyway thats not the main. The main is Euro is crashing down, and tonight they are preparing some back-up plan for the bailed-out Greece. Hopefully all turn out well. If not, i gotta experience up and down for 1 more day.

YUP, 1 more day to Thailand! WEEE.

A simple thought.

WAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Yes. Totally wassup man. :D

Enough of poser hip. Just happened to have a feeling to blog today. So, dear readers u guys are in luck today man! :)

Just realized that, when i am gone for Taiwan for 3weeks, SO many things happened. Like seriously, is it the peak season of troubles, or is it just the Devil wanting to attack people around me while i'm away? But dear friends, not to worry for as I AM BACK!! So give me a call any time you want @ 9xxxxxxx. You know you need it. :D

Yes, a look at the date and we all know what is it. 30th April. Something really meaningful is on the way to happen to me. 10 more days is all I am looking forward to. 11 more days is the beginning of another chapter. And i have been waiting for super long for this happen. 1yr 10months. Neither long nor short, but wonderful journey.

And I still have my new year resolution in my head. And its bringing me headache. I'm just 15% way there to my new year resolution. WHY!?!? Almost 1/2 year had passed, yet i'm just 15% of what i target. 85% more... AZA AZA fighting!!! >.<

Ok, whats next....... oh yes. My future plan. I have so many things in mind man. Alot of stuff is going through my head right now, that I don't even have a really clear and stable plan right now. But who cares, I know what i want right now and I'm gonna make sure I will get my wants. But I know if that's isn't God's will, then it shall not be done without His way. In the end, I still leave everything to You, my Lord. :)

Last but not least, I know God is faithful! Before even ORD i have already found a job. Though far but its a flexible job. It's gonna be nice. And He is always faithful, so I know that entry to SMU ain't gonna be a problem to me. I know that I know that I know, that God is gonna open up the doors for me in SMU, my ideal university to go to. So friends, please pray together with me ok?For an opened door for SMU.

Oh yeaa, this then is the last. Happy birthday to my dear friend - Gracelyn. You do know that I'm blessed with a friend like you. So wanna dedicate this to you. :) Of course, if you read this blog. haa.

Thats it. Tada...

**Words without thoughts are sometimes stupid, words with thoughts are also sometimes stupid. Just talking making people sometimes stupid.. hahaas.

nonsense logic i have.

And I say.......

God told me something that really touched my heart today.

He gave me this verse Matthew 8:5-13
⁵When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help. ⁶"Lord," he said, "my servant lies at home paralyzed and in terrible suffering."
⁷Jesus said to him, "I will go and heal him."
⁸The centurion replied, "Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. ⁹For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, 'Go,' and he goes; and that one, 'Come,' and he comes. I say to my servant, 'Do this,' and he does it."
¹⁰When Jesus heard this, he was astonished and said to those following him, "I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. ¹¹I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. ¹²But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth."
¹³Then Jesus said to the centurion, "Go! It will be done just as you believed it would." And his servant was healed at that very hour.

This verse speaks directly to my situation. Yes, though my grandma is a unbeliever of Christ, but so? By faith i know all things are possible through Him, and nothing is impossible for Him. As long as i believe, I could be the one who asked for favor for my grandma.
Because His name contains authority that no one else have, at His command it shall be speak to the mountain to be moved into the sea. BUT, works without faith is nothing. So now the key is still..... FAITH.

Be healed in the name of Jesus. Amen.

Some people claimed to know me, some people claimed they don understand me.
well, which is which doesn't really matter.

For i didn't understand the world and myself.
Once i was in the world, and were out of the world.
And now not sure in or out of the world.

Who know me? And who don't know me?
Only He who is both the world, knows.
Yet He choose to keep silent,
Till the day I gave up.

He loves seeing us suffer,
For suffering is meant something to Him.
And only those who fails means nothing to Him,
And those who succeed are the chosen one.

The cross-bearer, or the sin-bearer.
The Shepherd or the Wolves.
Who shall we follow then?

What's new.?

Let's see...

Please don't expect me to blog as much as before. I used to have these thinking, that when i have a blog i could update people what I've been doing, I could share more of my thinking/revelation of certain stuff, or things that happened to me; be it sad or happy, and THATS what i THINK blog is for.

I thought, i could pour out my sorrowness if i want to, or pour out my happiness to share with others. But right now i got a new revelation and a new wake up call from God.

FAQ SESSION.

First Question.
Why is there a need for me blog?

I find it no more purpose to blog. Because i realised that the most important when things really happened to me, the very first thing i should sought and seek for is God's Words. It's no longer useful confessing inside here, this small monitor screen reflecting what I've been thinking. God has become part of my life, and I love Him and i know that He loves me too.
And as He is as my father, my spiritual Father in heaven, whatever things I'm going thru right now, He knows, thats because I am sharing with Him. With Him, I find my comfort and peace, my answers, my revelation and hopyfully some day i find my purpose to do for Him.

Second Question.
Huh, like how does people will know what are you doing nowdays?

Well, if friends really want to know what am i doing. Simply call me and ask! It is said that "Ask and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find, and Knock and it will be opened to you." Of course, I will try my best to meet up with you guys etc, call you guys or sms you guys when i thought of you guys. Esp when i'm not that busy. But still, i believe its all bout initiatives. U could say u're taking initiatives to read my blog. Thanks and I appreciate those thoughts, but whats the point of just having a 1-way road, whereby you just read bout updates but there's no interaction. No point. Find it meaningless.


Last Question.
Does that mean you will never update forever? Meaning closing down?

ERrr... Not exactly. Ha, maybe just post from events going on but then Facebook is already taking over blog. ha, so more updates can be found there rather than here. =)

So yup guys, i would prefer to chat over sms/phone rather than blog which is a 1-way thingy. Like, you could listen to Dj on FM but not talking or sharing what you think.

Loves,
Sebas